Apathetic Way To Be

Ever had one of those days where you just feel like you're in a slump and you just have this certain apathy about practically everything? I've been in that slump for a couple weeks now, except it's mainly confined to my schooling nowadays. This is unusual for me. See, I'm the type of girl that lives for perfect A's and good grades, but none of it seems to matter anymore.

For the life of me, I can't figure out why either and that's what's bugging me. I'm behind in schoolwork from since November and it's not surprising about that since I generally procrastinate, but not usually on this level. I can't remember the last time I actually sat down and focused on my schoolwork instead of brushing it off.

It's not the incentive of finishing, I think. It's the repetitive monotony of school cycling over and over again and maybe it's just a bit of wanting actual social interaction. I love focusing on learning if I have someone to do it with and to commiserate with, but at this point, that's not possible as there are no good schools near me. So with that in mind, I just need something to focus on to make me want to do school, other than, of course, threat of failing. That never seems to work, sadly.

On a sidenote, I was looking at my random writing drabbles from different points within the last year and they all seem to hold a rather depressing note. Am I really that angsty? Gaah.

-Glind

(I have a valid excuse for failing on the second day of this blog and not posting. I had to drop my sister and her son off in Canada and I had no internet. I didn't even have a computer as this compie's screen is half detached from the rest of it and therefore, unfit to travel.)